100 truths and tag

001. Real name → Aleksandra Mouskovita Pohan
002. Like it? → i can live with it
003. Nickname(s)→ Sandra
004. Status → di KTP belum kawin, di fb in a relationship, di fs married, ayo tebak2 buah manggis :)
005. Zodiac sign → gemini
006. Male or female → F
007. Elementary→ SD KBRI Sofia, Ecole Victor Hugo Sofia, SDN Menteng 02..
008. Middle School → Russell Sage Junior High School 190 Queens (i had a solid junior high years without moving interruptions :))
009. High School → Benjamin N. Cardozo High School, SMU 8 Jakarta..
010. Hair color → pitch black
011. Long or short → middle length
012. Eye color → brown
013. Weight → fat ass
014. Height → 5'4 with brown eyes, smile like the sunrise :P
015. Righty or lefty → righty
016. Loud or Quiet → LOUD
017. Sweats or Jeans → jeans
018. Phone or Camera → camera phone
019. Health freak → <3>
020. Piercings?→ one on each ears
021. Do you have a crush on someone? → no
022. Eat or Drink → both
023. Purse or Backpack → purse
024. Tattoos → i have a hard time committing to the word forever
025. Do You Like Yourself? → sometimes
026. Current worry? → thesissss writing why does it have to be such a PAIN?

027. Orange or Apple Juice? → OJ, AJ love'em both
028. Night or Day? → nite owl
029. Sun or Moon? → full moon
030. TV or Internet? → internet
031. PlayStation or XBox? → wii looks cute but then again im not into games so neither..
032. Kiss or Hug? → warm hugs and lil kisses..
033. Iguana or Turtle? → i like dogs better :D
034. Spider or Bee? → neither!
035. Fall or Spring? → AUTUMN in NYC :D KANGENNNNNNN..
036. Limewire or iTunes? → limewire
037. Soccer or Baseball? → dont care at all..

038. First surgery → wisdom tooth removal..
039. First piercing → ears..
040. First best friend → maria?
041. First Sport? → for crying out loud :D
042. First award → i forgot what do kids usually win?
043. First crush → Josh Hartnett, still is..
044. First pet → hamsters, then puppie, then a fish and recently a rabbit, they all managed to die, disappear, or forgotten *bad pet owner haha*
045. First big vacation → euro tour when i was months old..
046. First big birthday → 1st bday, i was running a fever though..

047. Eating → nothing yet..
048. Drinking → nothing yet..
049. I'm about to → eat my brekkie, shower and run on SKRIPSI full speed..
050. Listening to → the wind swoooshing on my window..
051. Singing? → whatever is up..
052. Typing? → well i can lick the keyboard dumbass..
053. Waiting for → yudisium!

054. Want kids? → someday yes..
055. When? → when that someday happens haha..
056. Want to get married? → someday too..
057. When? → when that particular someday happens, then we can get to point 55..
058. Where Do You Want To Live? → as i grown older i became attached to spiced cuisines and since indo food is the best, i'll stick around here, i think..
059. Careers in mind → housewife..
060. What Did You Want To Be When You Were Little? → from a unicorn to a mermaid, anything was possible at that time :D
061. Mellow Future Or Wild? → i've grown mellow as time comes..
062. Something You Would Never Try? → jumping off an airplane in a parachute, it just doesn't make sense to me AT ALL, why'd the hell would u put yourself in such grave danger?

063. Lips or eyes → eyes
064. Shorter or taller? → taller..
065. Romantic or spontaneous → romantic..
066. Nice stomach or nice arms → how about nice personality..
067. Sensitive or loud → sensitive to my needs..
068. Hook-up or relationship → relationship..
069. Trouble maker or hesitant → ihh mati aja lo!
070. Hugging or Kissing? → both..
071. Tan Skinned or Light? → i don't care if he's white, yellow, dark, heck i'd love him if he was purple..
072. Dark or Light Hair? → dark..
073. Muscular or Normal? → built will be nice..

074. Lost glasses/contacts → no..
075. Ran away from home → no..
076. Held a gun/knife for self defense? → nope..
077. Killed somebody → no, just common roaches haha..
078. Broken someone's heart → maybe i dunno..
079. Been arrested → no..
080. Cried when someone died → no..
081. Kissed A Stranger? → YUCK..
082. Climbed Up A Tree? → yes when i was still light and feathery..
083. Liked A Friend As More Than A Friend? → ended up dating him..

084. Yourself → working on that..
085. Miracles → yes..
086. Love at first sight → in hollywood movies, maybe..
087. Heaven → and hell too yes..
088. Santa Claus → NO..
089. Kiss on the first date → no, that's not what nice girls do..

090. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes..
091. Do You Like Someone? → yes..
092. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → at the moment no, i wish i had more control..
093. Do you believe in God → absolutely..

094. Recieved/Sent Text Message → forgot..
095. Received Call → toko pandawa lima..
096. Call Made? → hasp last 1 am in the morning haha..
097. Comment On MySpace? → fb is the shizz..
098. Missed Call? → rendhy..
099. Person You Hung out With? → fh-ers last nite..

100. Post as 100 truths and tag




i haven't written a while..
i'm brokenhearted *sigh*

i wanted to graduate so bad this january..
maybe i didn't put in that much effort to do so..
or maybe my life is just so plain complicated..
or maybe i'm born so effin' slow?

i dunno..

so i've known i wasn't going to graduate 4.5 years..
i'm doing it the 5 years way..

how does that make me feel?
retarded? for sure..
ashamed? definitely..
dumb? AS HELL..

this whole skripsi-sidang thing for me is nothing more than a persyaratan lulus kuliah..
i'm not taking it as my grand final masterpiece in law school..
because i'm not proud of it..

like there's anything to be proud of?

when i do hopefully (must!) graduate later this july..
it won't be like a 'yeah!' feeling but more like well 'yes this should have happened sooner'..

i'm seriously tired of beating myself up, dragging myself down..
it's making me feel like i'm anything less than..
and I'M NOT..